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GLBT History Month 2009






NATIONAL COMING OUT DAY 2009

this is hilarious!

come out.. come out where ever you are!

Nobody is asking you to carry the pride flag around or tattoo it on your forehead (you can if you want to though) but just to come out to people who are near and dear to you to those closest to you, friends and family you can trust.

Be prepared:

1) The first time doing this can be extremely emotional. keep tissues nearby.

2) people are bound to shower you with questions.... all sorts of questions. even questions you would not ask them about their sex life. If you are not comfortable answering them.. DON'T.

3) rejoice... it is an incredible feeling once you have come out., i have no words to explain. feel it.

I would suggest telling someone you know would be supportive and understanding instead of one who is going to loose their heads.

wrote this at the spur of the moment, will touch it up and complete as time permits.

happy coming out!

halo

sweets this is dedicated to you. this song reminds me of you. and the clip reminds me of us. love you loads Y





Remember those walls I built
Well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
Woah...

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
[ Beyonce Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo)
Halooooo ouuuu
Halooooo ouuuu
Halooooo ouuuu
Ouuuuu ouuuuu ouuuuu

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo

Note : I do not own rights to the song or the video. sorry for any infringement, let me know if you want this taken down. thanks!

End Homophobia



this video was made based on a poem called "i am", i have no idea who wrote it but it speaks volumes. there are many versions of this poem on youtube check it out if you like.

homophobia is a sickness that needs a cure.

p.s. love is never wrong

p.p.s. this is not my video and i do not own rights to it.

It's about equal rights, not special rights

The below was a letter written by me and published on Malaysiakini during the last election. Just thought of sharing it on here.


I believe many of us are familiar with the term ‘divide and conquer’ as both the Roman and British empires put this tactic into practice. In order to maintain power and control, they resorted to turning the people against each another.

Typically religion, language, or caste is brought into play to turn people against each another, thus making it easier for the would-be controllers to exploit and take control. They realised that people who are united would be able to oppose their rule.

This divide and rule, although sometimes a slow process, is evidently effective and subtle, so subtle that we do not recognise it happening until it gets out of hand. This strategy normally involves:

-> Creating or encouraging divisions among the subjects in order to forestall alliances that could challenge the sovereign.


-> Aiding and promoting those who are willing to cooperate with the sovereign.


-> Fostering distrust and enmity between local rulers.


-> Encouraging frivolous expenditures that leave little money for political and military ends.

As an example of divide and rule, the British Empire exercised the following tactic in Sri Lanka where hey made it mandatory for race to be indicated on official documents and forms.

Does all this information ring an all too familiar bell? Does this all this seem to be happening around us? To us? To our loved ones? To our acquaintances? To our fellow citizens?

It puzzles me that we hardly see ourselves as Malaysians. Why do we identify ourselves as Chinese, Iban, Malay, Indian, Punjabi, and everything in between but never just as Malaysian? I think these divisions have been implanted into our system over the years. Our minds, from a very tender age, have been tempered with and manipulated.

We are all citizens of the same country, from the same vernacular although sometimes we refuse to see it. Who is to say that if someone fights for our rights which are due to them, that they should return to their country of origin? How is this logical when this is our homeland? We were born on this land, we are Malaysians.

We should not have to go to some foreign country to get our rights, or to make it in life or to feel accepted. Nevertheless, this is the case here in this country and this is a serious flaw. This flaw in my opinion cannot be addressed unless we all see ourselves as Malaysians, we unite, we love and respect each other and we demand equal rights for all.

I strongly believe that this is not an impossible dream. My friends and I of various race, religion, colour, size, sexual preference, gender and so on and so forth have been able to discuss everything under the sun without inciting hate or getting offended so I’m sure the rest of us can too. In fact, I must add, we have grown so fond of each other that we love and respect a person for exactly who he or she is without holding against anything them.

My point is, it is not about special rights, it is about equal rights. Our rights belong right here on this land, this country. I remember so clearly citing Bersatu kita teguh, bercerai kita roboh so many times in school in full spirit though all the while we were being separated. Are we really going to sit around and take it? Don’t you think it is time we joined hands and embraced each other for what we truly are, Malaysians?

The way I look at it, it is pretty much in our hands. We are not to be afraid of the government. It is after all supposed to be the people’s government and not the government’s people. As diverse as we are, let us unite.

True lies

If the world is a lie,
and hate is a lie,
all the pain a lie,
the love we feel a lie,
the joy a lie?

the laughter we shared,
the tears that we shed… a lie?
The times that we cried,
and for times that we smiled… a lie?

Then I am a lie,
and truth for sure is a lie!
How would you remember me, when I die?
for All the memories… are lies!

Sigh! I’d fade away
out of sight,
Into the depths of the
dark, dark night!

Unconditionally

We give in expectations of return,
For if not your soul we will burn,
For in time surely our minds would turn,
But, alas! We want more to fill our urn.

When exactly will we learn,
To love and not expect in return.

for all the times

This is my first post on blogger and would like to dedicate this to someone truly special, whose blog i stalk almost daily... you know who you are :). i would always be here for you. Take good care of yourself.

For all the times … I let you down,
Stood by and watched you drown,


For all the times … I made you cry,
When I’m supposed to wipe them dry,


For all the times … I forgot,
Let you slip right out of my thought

For all those times… that I regret,
I’m profoundly sorry…. I didn’t react.